So, i finally dove into the world of the World Race. Joining my squad group pages, printing off needed information, taking my personality test… it only took me 10 days after committing, which to me is 7 days too long. But there's no formula to this process, so we'll say that I am right on target. 😉
Over the last month I have started to embrace, wait, consider the art of blogging. Lots of people do it, it's fun, a natural thing to flow from your fingers, and I'm an extrovert, so no worries… right? And with this new venture that God is calling me to, I need to start getting use to the idea because blogging is about to become a part of my "world."
So I take this idea and ever so slowly have reached my arms around it and began to embrace it. Over the course of the last week, I have had ideas flood into my head about what I would like to share. Things the Lord is speaking to me, showing me, growing in me, and I have moments where I'm like, "this is good stuff, I would totally read my blog." I have to pump myself up, self-talk, it works. 🙂
And then I have this moment when I stop and think, "Why does this feel like such a big deal?" For someone like myself who LOVES to talk, why am I ….. pausing…. to share…. what's in…. my heart, my internal thoughts. ME- the talker???
The thing is, words, and oh how I do love them and have come to know the power of them, for He tells us there is life and death in the tongue, when speaking them in conversation they seem to stick to.. air. But…in blogging, they're in black and white, can be pulled up and looked at and reread and …. i could keep going. It's funny coming to a point in yourself, who you think really doesn't care about what others think, and realizing that your hesitation is that people will judge what you say, what you type. And I don't mean judge like condemn (though they might), just judge – how do they feel about it, do they agree, are they moved, touched, bothered, inspired?
My perfectionist, people pleaser, please like me and agree with everything I say "natural" self whom the Lord has so graciously and lovingly worked on and grown to become a child of His that strives to take very little personally and to remember that EVERYBODY has an opinion and that's actually what makes us so stinking interesting, is now embracing blogging, as we speak. How boring would we be if we all agreed. EXCEPT on one basic, vital truth. God is in love with us, His creation, and He sent His Son as proof.
And that's when it happens, when that shift occurs, and your focus targets in on truth, and all else fades. I am His daughter, loved and accepted by a Holy King. And confidence comes and worry leaves and darkness flees. This truth is available to all.
So, hello blogging world. You're not such a scary place after all. I think I'm gonna like it here.
Peace,
Monica
