“Molly what are you going to do with your life now that your back from the race?”
“Do you plan to go back to school in the fall?”
“When will you start back at work?”
“What do you think is the best plan for your life?”
I have to say that these questions will be asked of me more than once when I first get back from the field. To make it easy on the people asking the question and on me, my answer right now is, “Only God Knows”.
Last night while I was online looking at colleges. It came to me right when I was about to cry because, 1.) I couldn’t find colleges close enough to home. 2.)I realize that I’m broke and to get into a good college I will have to pay off loans for… EVER. 3.) I’m not ready to look at colleges yet, because I still have 2 months left on the race, and God can change my mind at any time and ask me to stay or go back to one of the 11 countries I have gone too. That’s its ok not to know what to do right away when I get home.
I feel like everyone expects me to know what I have planned to do with the rest of my life, because I went on this glorious mission trip around the world. The thing is I don’t have a clue…YET!
Yes, I will go back to school
Yes, I will go back to work
All in that order maybe not, but I know God wants me to finish school, and i know I want to finish it too. I love my job as a CNA (Certiied Nursing Assistant), but I don't want to do it forever. I can say for sure I will be back to Bolivia, Albania, and maybe even Thailand one day. When that day comes I will let you know when God lets me know.
My team always reminds me that I don’t need to have everything figured out this very second.
There are times I have to object because I don’t want to live in my parents’ house forever. My sister Emily goes off to college in a year and she will probably be out of the house before me. Do I feel pressured? The answer is…yes. I do feel that at the age of 23, I should have a degree and have a place of my own.
Some will say, “Well you shouldn’t have taken a year off of school”. The reality is that it would have taken a long time no matter what. The nursing field is very hard to get into with 800 applicants to 40 seats each year, and if you don’t already know school is not my forte and I struggle often. Even though that’s the cases I will not give up.
God has taught me so much while on the mission field. He has taught me to love the unlovable, to speak words into people who shut their ears, to touch the lives that no one ever takes a second glance at when walking past. I have been given a great opportunity to spread theLove, Joy, and Happinessthat god has given me.
I want to be able to do more for the captives, the blind, the broken hearted, and the forgotten.
When I get home, and I am ask, “Molly what are your plans, now that your home”.
I will say, "That God has done so much in my life these past 11 months and I will not waste it. I will go to college, and back to work. One day I will travel again to the places that have touched my heart and I will make a difference once again in the lives of many."
