God has a really funny sense of humor. Have you ever noticed that? You seem to have this perfect plan for your life, your week, your vacation, or even just your day. Then God shows up and drastically flips it upside down. I hate to say it, but I am one of those crazy people who likes to have a plan for everything. I’m a planner, but I didn’t plan this.
I like order. I like pretty planners and orderly calendars. I like lists and labels. I like schedules and perfect penmanship on them. I like to know what I’m doing and when I’m doing it. I like to have a plan and know what’s going to happen.
I couldn’t have however, planned for this.
Growing up, everyone I knew graduated high school and went to college. That’s just what you did. That was the plan. That was my plan. I thought. I thought I wanted to go to college to be a teacher, or a journalist, or something. I wasn’t ever sure. Maybe that was the first sign God had something I couldn’t have planned, planned for me.
Last year I realized I needed to let God have more of me. All of me. Which was hard. It actually is still hard. I knew though I needed to let go of what I wanted for my life and let him show me what he wanted for me, and of me. So here I am. Letting go of everything comfortable. Everything I know. All my empty plans and packed full planners. All my plans of the future. All my ideas of what life should be like. All my plans. I’m letting go of them.
Because honestly, the plans God has made for my life are far greater than mine could ever be.
I mean, because of him. Because I decided to let go. Because I decided to say yes to his plans. My life is forever changed. Because I let go, I get to love on the least and the lost. I get do this crazy thing called life with people who share my passion for people and love for the Lord. I get to live out my dream, because I let go of everything I had planned.
“We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps.” – Proverbs 16:9
So my God’s a planner, but maybe I shouldn’t be.
