Fear: (noun) an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, and likely to cause pain.
I have so many fears of going on the World Race. I am afraid of leaving my family for 9 months. I’m afraid of taking a year off from college. I am afraid of having to raise almost $14,000. I am afraid that I will not be “good enough.” I am afraid of having to open my heart completely to my team. But, most of all, I am afraid that what if this is not what God wants for me?
And that is where I stop letting my fears control me. I remember how small my fears are. I remember how great my God is. I remember that God called me to this, not because it was easy.
His love compels me. He leads me deeper, past all my fears, into an unknown land. He teaches me how to trust, love, and grow.
I will still have fear. But in those moments I will choose to listen to what God says about me, not the lies that fear will utter. God calls me courageous, and courage is resisting and controlling fear, not the absence of fear.
Even though I have fears about the World Race, there is also so much joy and excitement. To see how God has already provided constantly leaves me in awe of Him.
So this is me, scared, but willing. I know that I am not alone at all, but God is within me and through the pain and the joy, He will be glorified.
“When I am afraid, I will put my trust in you.” Psalm 56:3
