Have I changed?
I’ve been on the race for two months and in 3 countries. I have to say that I love what I’m doing here and seeing God move in these places. But I’ve been wondering… am I actually growing? Is the trip changing me for the better or am I staying the same?
These past months have been rough. I’ve had to take cold bucket showers, sleep in a tent, wear the same 3 shirts and jeans over and over and talk to people in a language I barely know. But is my faith getting stronger?
I’ve met amazing ministry contacts that have jaw dropping faith. They just left everything and came to a country they hardly know to do the Lord’s work! I admire them so much! You can just see God smiling down on them and saying “yes, you are my good and faithful servant”.
Am I doing the same thing? Yes I left home and all the comforts that go with it, but am I really serving Him? I’d like to say I am. It might not be in the same way as others who post blogs on the World Race site do. But in my own quiet way I am serving Him. But in all this serving am I growing?
Am I trusting Him more? Is my faith in Him getting stronger? Am I becoming more like Him?
It’s hard to say. I thought I would be seeing major changes by now. But He’s been telling me that just like the wild flowers when they grow, you don’t see the growth that is happening in them.
They sprout and start to grow. At first you don’t see anything. But they’re growing and pretty soon they’re going to have beautiful blossoms.
I believe that I am growing and changing. It may be small and unnoticeable to me and others, but that’s because it’s in the early stages of growth. The small significant changes that God has to do in me, before I can blossom.
Could you all pray for me and my squad? Our next fundraising deadline of $11,000 is on April 1st. I and many others haven’t met this deadline yet but we all know that God is going to provide and that He wants us here for the whole 11 months!
Thank you all!
