I’m now in Antigua, Guatemala! It was a 18 hour bus ride there but I can already tell that it was worth it. I’m already in love with Guatemala.
For the past 4 days we have been in debrief. At the sessions they ask if anyone would like to share something they are struggling with.
The first night I felt like I needed to share but I wasn’t sure what it was. Then the second night the lord put my name in a fellow squad mates heart and she asked if there was something to share. There was so I told them about how I am struggling with my self worth, which led to anorexia, and the feeling of not being worth enough to have friends or to be loved by someone. After I said these things 3 people prayed for me and 2 had visions. One of the visions was about me telling a large group of people about what Jesus has done for me. The other was about me locking myself in a dark room and feeling like no one will see me but Jesus was there and he sees me and he is waiting for me to return his gaze.
Before I shared the enemy kept telling me that I shouldn’t because no one will want to pray for me and what I have to share has been shared by others so it won’t be worth repeating. But that was such a lie! God gave me 3 people to pray for me and so much encouragement from others! I never what to believe those lies again.
Now that I have shared that, I feel so much lighter and connected with the squad. I am being set free of my feeling of unworthiness!
