One night we walked into the building at camp where we had worship and lectures and noticed that all of the chairs were gone! We had no clue what we were going to do that night, but we ended up asking the Holy Spirit to tear down our walls and heal those who need healing.
While I was standing there praying someone came up and whispered to me that God has made me the way I am for a reason and that I will reach those that others can’t. They also said that He is going to use the compassionate heart that He has given me.
I don’t know who this person was but I am so thankful that they were willing to listen to God and tell me these words of comfort that I needed to hear!
All week at camp I was thinking that I am way too quiet and not as outgoing as I should be. I was comparing myself to others on my squad and saw them already making strong bonds, while I talked to maybe… three of them. I kept my walls up and stayed in the back and watched everyone, because that’s what I am comfortable with. But God doesn’t want us to do only what is comfortable. That’s what this race is about, leaving what’s comfortable and living in the uncomfortable. Because when you’re uncomfortable that is when God starts working.
I didn’t cry at all at camp. Actually I hardly ever show my emotions, because that is showing weakness. Even though God was telling me that camp was a safe place, I held my emotions in, and that kept me from connecting with people, but that’s alright God and I are working on it.
Those words showed me that God has made me this way for a reason and that He doesn’t want me to change that part of me. This is no excuse to not talk to people or show my emotions, but that it is OK that I am not as outgoing as some of my other squad mates and that He is going to teach me how to share my feelings.
And He is showing me that my not talking very much is what He is going to use to reach people. I was told at camp that I bring calm and peace to others just by sitting with them and listening to their stories. I believe that this is how God is going to use me to reach others. Although I am uncomfortable showing my emotions or sharing my story I can still share the Gospel by listening and sitting with others.
“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well”
Psalm 139:14
I will praise God for the way that He has made me. His works are wonderful and I know that well! He has never made anything that isn’t perfect in His sight! We are all fearfully and wonderfully made and we should praise Him! No matter how many flaws we see in ourselves, all He sees is His perfectly made children!
I also have some exciting news! I have found out my launch date! I will be going to Atlanta January 6 and leaving the country on January 9. I am so excited to see my squad again and start working with my team! Please continue to pray for my squad and that we will meet all of our deadlines!
