Sometimes I really wonder what God is up to. Seriously, at the end of a long day I lay down and just look up and shake my head and give him this smirk because I know he’s up to something, something I won’t ever be able fully grasp until were face to face. At times I get frustrated not being able to understand what he's doing. Why he places me in certain people’s lives, why he calls me to do the things I’m called to do, why he tests me the way he does, and why my circumstances in life, at times just don’t make any sense to me.
I have been a Christian since I was 6 years old but one year ago God asked me one question that I will never forget. "Miranda, what do you want, me or this world? Because you can’t have both." and although I knew this for a fact it had never hit me the way it did that night. I had never really realized that I would forever be dead to this world if I were to be true Christian. I would be forsaking my flesh to live in the spirit. God was calling me for something more. He was calling me to choose, and to make it an evident choice. It was all or nothing and that’s how it had to be for the rest of my time here on this earth. Even now when I get too caught up in this world and start to lose sight he always reminds me of that moment, that moment he calld me to die to this world ( no matter the circumstance or how uncomfortable it may be) and simply run into his arms, to breathe for the very first time a breath that would forever change my life.
My life was awakened to a beauty beyond compare and a love so overwhelming for the very first time I finally decided to give him my ENTIRE life, every aspect of it.
My first breath of eternity!
Yes, right now my circumstances are a bit awkward and uncomfortable and it seems as though heartbreak is there to greet me at every corner, but I won’t run away. I will hold on to my father’s promises, promises of prosperity, hope, and love. Amongst chaos, He promised to be my peace and so he shall be.
We are his lilies among the thorns.
