I'm always so good at giving advice. Always good at saying things like 'there's no room for fear in the Christian life' (said in a matter-of-fact voice). Then God calls you to do something scary. God actually asks you to give something up. And you're kinda like wait a sec. You want me to go where and do what? I thought I was gonna be a Disney animator. I mean You put me in the college program to get my foot in the door and now You want me to do full-time missions.
Okay, okay I can do that. I mean I can use my photography to reach out to people or maybe even do *gulp* foreign missions documentary photography. I'll start looking for that. That's what You want. I got this.
Oh, okay. So that's not what You want, Campus Crusade for Christ intern? Okay I could handle that… Have indepth conversations about what You do in lives and how loving and amazing You are. I got that on lockdown, I mean I LOVE talking.
oh, not that either….
World Race? Isn't that a bit much. I mean 11 countries. I've only been in one. America. That's culture shock to the fullest. I mean I know I've said I was sick of taking America for granted and such but I was only frustrated. I really just liked the idea of getting away from the comforts. I mean yes I read the book Kisses from Katie and she kinda described my feelings. Yes, I did that report in high school about the blood diamonds and the effect of child soldiers. And yes, I read that one book that broke my heart about the refugee children. But those are books and this is real life. Isn't that a bit much….
But wait isn't that what You ask for. Don't You ask for everything in our lives. And don't you ask for much from the people you have given much to. (Luke 12:48) I mean sure you plucked me out of a rough childhood and such. And yeah you gave me Love in a way I never imagined. Sure you provided for me to go to college. And yeah You provided two sets of loving parents who support me. Well, yeah, you did give me so much. But aren't you asking a lot.
Well, I applied. That should be good right… I mean I applied for the World Race and am going to apply for Campus Crusade for Christ so whatever You do, I'm good.
waiting….. waiting…. Okay so only 6 spots but 18 applicants. So if you don't choose me then it's settled Campus Crusade for Christ it is. (I'm not gonna get one of the spots. A little dissappointed but atleast I know God's Will, right?!?)
phone call… ummm…. okay…. so You gave me one of the spots. I thought you weren't going to. You chose me as one of the spots. Are you sure? I mean really sure?
okay…..
Here we go!
