Lately the enemy has been trying to come at me bro.
"Get behind me Satan" has become apart of daily vocabulary. He attacks me and he knows exactly how to do it. He brings up things like my family.
Telling me that im an orphan and that no one care for me.
That because you come from nothing you will never be anything.
You are not worthy to be loved.
Guys only like you for what you can do for them.
Your fat and ugly and your worthless.
People dont like to be around you.
People think youre annoying.
People think you have nothing to offer in a relationship.
You will forever be alone.
You thought you were free from addictions but youre not.
You will not go on this trip. You will not hit this deadline.
No one will give you their money.
Youre not worthy.
Youre not worthy.
YOURE NOT WORTH.
GET BEHING ME SATAN!!
YOU ARE A LIAR.
YOU SPEAK NO TRUTH.
I am beautiful. I am His. His beloved.
Psalm 139
1 You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
He wrote me a love letter:
Mikkia,
You are my beloved. You were created in my image. I make no mistakes. You may have been told that you were a mistake, but trust me my love yo were not. I planned you. I knew you and all of your days long ago. I love you more than you can fathom. You are not alone. For I am always with you. You know those friends that you think dont really care for you? My love I can not express how much they do. I have put them in your path. They are here to stay. Some people I put in your life for a season. You think that there is no constants. Let me assure you that there are some. I know who they are. But I want you to figure it out. You will know soon enough. Mikkia I am your father. You dont need another. You have been adopted into my family. There are many of us. this is a promise I make to you. There is a man. He will love you because of your love for me and me alone. Not because of your body like in the past. He will love you, and lead you. That is my promise. You have freedom in me believe it. There is freedom waiting for you to grab it. You are worthy. You are worthy. YOU ARE WORTHY!!!
I LOVE YOU MY DEAR CHILD.
Your father.
I am His, and He is mine.
