You know how we say everyone has a purpose on this earth, and we don’t leave until that purpose has been fulfilled? Well I used to think that was all just a load of crap. I feel like I know a lot of people who’ve died and didn’t do anything productive or meaningful with their lives. But whether their lives were meaningful or had purpose isn’t up to me right?
Just about two weeks ago I came face to face with death. My mom and I were on our way to my aunt’s funeral. We were literally a block away from the church where the funeral was being held. We are sitting at a stop light. We are in the left turning lane. There is a car going straight coming from the opposite direction of us. Behind this car I see another car approaching. Now I’m what they call “a back- seat driver,” so I kept my mouth shut, because I knew she’d be upset if I tried to correct her driving. There was no reason for me to believe she didn’t see the other car approaching. So the light turns green. The car coming from the opposite direction goes straight, and my mom goes to turn. Before I could even think to say anything……..BOOOOOMMMM!!!! Head on collision. We spun out and finally hit a telephone pole. The air bags let out. I touch my face and there is blood everywhere. I had no idea where it was coming from. I all shook up at this point. I start to walk toward the funeral, because like I said we were a block away from it. I wish I had taken pictures of this car. It is literally by the grace of God that my mom got out of the car without a scratch. I had some blood, bumps and bruises. But I walked out of there ALIVE!
Now this isn’t that first time I’ve met with death. There has been so many times where I could have died, but I didn’t. I’m not exactly sure why I’ve been given so many chances but I have. I’m not sure exactly what my specific purpose is, but I’m determined to find out. But in the meantime and in between time I will serve. I will no longer be enslaved by timidity. I will not be ashamed to let my light shine.
I heard a story once of a mother and a daughter. The daughter had been asking the mom to get her a flash light. So the mom took her daughter to Wal-mart where they got the girl a flash light. As they are in the checkout line the little girl is upset. She’s playing with the flashlight, but because of how lite up the place was she couldn’t see the light. The girl screams to her mom “take me to some darkness.” She understood that light worked at its best when it is in a dark place. I will intentionally go to the dark places. I will be the light I am called to be. “We’ll be that city on a hill burning brightly; we’ll be a light to the world shining your glory. I’m NOT ashamed!” that song plays over and over in my head, as I sit here wondering my purpose.
