I sit on a rock above the sea because it’s comfortable; because its what everyone else is doing; because it’s the American dream. I breathe in – out – in – out. This can’t be it! I want more! This air fills my lungs but does not satisfy my soul. Is there more? Worldly things cannot satisfy me. I want something life changing, mind altering, soul building, heart filling, body healing, and all satisfying. Then I hear a voice saying, “Dive into me and I will love you fully and I will never grow weary of my love.” That is what I want! Praise be to God! Now enemies surround guarding me from the ledge. They entice me and try to open my heart but their key never seems to fit. I’m distracted; I’m scared; I’m overwhelmed; I’m weak. Then in my weakness a beautiful light burns through the heavens piercing the clouds in two. There he comes on a white horse that is called Faithful and True. His eyes are like blazing fire, and His robe is dipped in blood. His name is word of God. The shinning sword of justice comes out of His mouth to strike down my enemies. Set before me is a clear path to ledge so I don’t walk but instead I run. At the ledge I’m about to collapse because of the chains that surround my body. I fall over the ledge in my weakness and as I fall doubt rushes over me, but I’m free falling and nothing can stop this process. I hit water and it’s refreshing. My chains evaporate never to be seen again. I swim to the surface to get some air but all the air does is fill my lungs nothing else. Where’s the satisfaction? Where’s the love? Where’s the key to my heart? Then my Father says, “Sink into me so that I can have all of you.” This is crazy! I can’t just let go! What about my life? What about my future? What about my family? What about me? What about me? But then I hear “Take up your cross, follow me, lose you life, gain my love, lose your plans, follow my plans, lose your expectations because I have so much more in store for you. Son let go and I will satisfy you so that you will never thirst again.” So I swim down further, further, and further becoming weaker, weaker, and weaker. My oxygen runs out! My heart begins to fail! This is it! Maybe I was just hearing voices but now its too late. There I go beep, beep, beep, beep, and silence…….
Then when I thought all was lost my heart begins to sing a new song. I’m back to life but something’s different. I’m satisfied, and the Father opened my heart. I no longer need air because now I breathe in His grace and breathe out His love. I am a son no longer in slavery but now in son ship to my Dad. He says, “Go and tell nations about me.” So I go not because I have too but because my heart beats a new song and that song is for His people.
