Month One of the World Race!
Learning to live with a group of girls was the LAST thing I thought I’d be doing.
As silly as this sounds, I thought this season of my life and year was just me and God. Haha.
Oh, how wrong was I? I think God knew exactly what I needed for our first month… community living.
I was not able to run away from the problems or conflicts I had with people and cutting them out of my life … like I normally would do and sticking through all the ugly situations and learning to love each other even when it’s hard. I think the Lord really put “building relationships” in a different perspective for me.
It was hard for me to understand WHY these girls would even bother dealing with me through my frustration and anger. There were many moments where I felt out of place and didn’t belong. I wasn’t the happy, joyful “full of the spirit” Michelle that I was before launch. I felt very awkward. I think through my team pouring into me even though I wasn’t the most pleasant to be around and love me through the ugliness, I was able get a glimpse of Jesus’ love for me. After I shared how I felt being here in India, one of my teammates pointed out and told me that, “It’s okay sometimes not to be okay.” God loves me for me now, even if it’s not pretty and I’m not perfect… He loves me for me now.
I was able to break free from the fear I had in sharing and the walls I had up. She was right. Even if things aren’t going the way I thought it would, and I’m not being a certain way… it’s okay.
Below is a recap video of my experiences in India…This video was originally made to send to my church community back home — but thought I’d also share it on my blog too 🙂
** I’ve been super insecure about writing a blog and it has been a huge burden for me for the longest time during this race. The Lord has given me freedom in that recently, so i’ve decided to start posting weekly video blogs! Please pray for the Spirit to lead me with my writing and sharing 🙂 **
