Well what can I say I learned not to have expectation of what ministry was going to be after what the second month in China. I realized that the more expectation is something that could potentially give you a negative outlook of what it’s going to be like for the future ministry locations and honestly I don’t want that type of outlook I just want to go where God wants me to go. That’s important right? Well I’m going to answer that question….YES. I would have to say my ministry was much different this time in Dar Es Salaam then in Moshi which was the first time in June. The first time was only for ten days and I never seen so many physical healings, deliverance and salvations in my life. I really saw the physical fruit and the harvesting. The second trip in Dar it was more planting the seeds and loving the people. We had a debrief meeting with our team tonight and the question came up about expectation of Africa and I thought of what the Lord showed me the first mission trip in Moshi and the Lord just kept telling me “its all about my love nothing else” and one of my teammates said it exactly what God told me the first time in Africa and tears welded up in my eyes. You know how you remember those important days its kind of when you see your first niece or nephew born and the excitement of a beautiful child be born in this world. It was kind of joy and excitement as that. I love it when God shares the secrets of His heart to others. It just means that He is softening their hearts. I guess this blog got triggered tonight by why I am here on The World Race and what I thought it was going to be like before this mission’s trip. I know that we are always being stripped and refined as women and men of God but I thought before this trip that I was done with it. I kept saying “God you already stripped me from all this stuff already” but I feel like I am in the next part of my life of healing and God is showing me more and more about me. I love it when something hard is brought to my attention that I need to change about me from the Lord. Man does it hurt when the one person you love the most tells you flat out what needs to be changed or uses someone to tell you. As this continues I thank God for every time and minute that this happens because its one piece of my heart that is changed into His. I cannot wait for that day where I’m so radiant with Gods love that it just pours out on everyone!
Psalm 34:18
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
