Well I did it!!!! God did something to me the day I had to preach. Let me just say I was a complete mess!!! But isn’t that what happens most of the time when God saves us? Well once again God picked me up and saved me! That is one of the things that I have been asking God to break me through this year was getting up and speaking when He tells me to speak.
When I was in fifth grade I had something that really made me have a hard time with public speaking. I would have to say I was a pretty shy little girl but as far as being in talent shows and things like that I really enjoyed until fifth grade. I remember doing this report and having to stand up in front of two grades and do a presentation. Well I made a mistake of copying from the book and I ended up getting humiliated in front of my class and two others from my teacher and the kids made fun of me and laughed. From then on I would never get up in front of anyone for anything and say speeches or anything. The devil used that to plant lies in my mind always telling me “if you stand up again there just going to laugh at you” so for a long time I believed that lie. I believed that lie for years all the way past high school. Well last month in Kenya God helped me through it and I spoke twice and preached once. Praise God!!! God would never tell us to get up and tell our story or His and have people make fun of you. He just is not a God like that. God wants me to share His heart and wants to save people. So I did it!!! I have to admit I was nervous but it’s getting better. Every time I feel that feeling I give it to God and He helps me through it. So when I was told that I had to have a sermon prepared I prayed about it and God showed me exactly what He wanted me to preach about. I spoke on Jonah. It was amazing!!! I think I looked at my not cards twice and just spoke from my heart and listening to God.
That morning I was standing there and I was crying in the corner of the church crying out to God and telling Him that I was scared. Then I had a teammate come up and put his hands on me and started praying for me. I stood there for a long time just talking to the Lord and I looked down and there was a vine and John 15 came to my mind instantly the Lord comforted me instantly and told me He was there for me. Just one of the many wonderful things He showed and did for me in the month of Kenya!
