Okay so I have been processing the first week in Kenya and I have experienced some tough situations being here. The honest truth I just have not really enjoyed my experience here because of some of the negative things that has happened to me. I know that God has me here for a reason and I am glorifying Him through everything even though it is hard.
The first Sunday I went to this church that three of our teams are serving at for the month of December and its amazing! Especially what the Lord wants to do in this place. When I got there it was great dancing with the kids and inviting people in and just having a great time praising the Lord. Then I sat on one of the benches by this sweet girl and this sweet boy and it was splendid!!! If you bring kids by me I am a happy camper. Kids are just so joyful and they always put a smile on my face. Then this guy walked in and sat in between the little boy and me. My first thought was “okay this guy is high but maybe he just needs someone to pray with him.” Well the whole congregation started to pray and that’s when his behavior towards me was inappropriate. I don’t know what happened but I sat there and all these things kept going through my mind as this was taking place and then finally I took his hand and through it off of me. I continued to sit next him and just prayed over him and he just continued acting inappropriate towards me. After that happened I felt so violated and I felt like my joy was taken from me at that moment. My attitude has been so negative and I have been angry that something like that happened to me. I have been asking God to help me through this time and He is so faithful and is helping me through this time. I am a forgiving person and even though that happened I do not hold any type of grudge towards him I just pray that he would know the Lord and change his ways. One thing I learned in training camp was that it’s healthy to grieve in situations like this and it’s okay to be angry its just keeping it in that can be dangerous. It took me a few weeks to post this blog because I did not want anyone to be afraid or worried, but I want people to know why I had some struggles in Kenya and why my experience here has not been what I thought it would be like.
