Being here has been the most amazing and tough time at the same time. I have asked God to put me on an all women’s team right before training happened so I would not have to deal with any type of distractions. I know that I am not going on the race to meet someone I have surrendered everything like that at training camp, but there can always be that type of distraction and all it takes is that one time where your not using all your focus on the one and true amazing thing…..GOD and then everything gets so complicated. Well training camp happened and it all changed I thought okay I could be on a men’s team, but then are team was chosen and I ended up being on the women’s team. I think we all struggled at first being on a women’s team at first. I know everything that happens is the will of God and that is why I am in the place I am today. I have always trusted that God will take care of everything even though sometimes I don’t always understand. I have been struggling being here as far as our team ministry goes. I feel as though I have no one to talk to and no one to understand the way I’m feeling. I am missing home a little bit and know I have so much support and covering in prayer but its really hard at the same time right now. We are in a team where we don’t know anything about one another and to trust someone after a few weeks is a lot to ask out of me, but I want to do whatever God has for us because He is going to do something amazing in each and every one of us in this ministry. I have been burned so many times by women and it all started in high school (which was a long time ago) but I still have a hard time opening up and giving my heart a 100% to other women because I don’t want that disappointment again. Yesterday we had a team meeting and we put everything down on the table and put our pride aside and laid it down. What came to my mind sitting there was I don’t want to be afraid and I don’t want to fear anything but You heavenly Father and you put me on this team so I am going to try my hardest to get to know these women of God and give each and everyone a chance to be apart of my heart. I was really excited about last night and the way we put everything aside and just talked like human beings that have feelings and did not judge one another. So I’m not really good at this blog thing but I want everyone to know my struggles on this path God has put me on to pray for me but also know my strengths to lift God up in praise for using me everyday in my life! Thank you supporters/family/friends for everything!!! I am excited for you guys to take this ride with me and my team and to see us grow as a family!!!!
