Today as Nicolas and I went for a walk, and found ourselves amidst boulders I watched as the little climber leaped from rock to rock. Don't worry, I followed and was always there in case he were to slip. Then thought of leaving Nicolas came into my mind. That is something that destroys my heart. I found myself thinking of all the ways I could keep him. How I could make that little man my little boy.
So today I spent most of my day playing with him and getting to know the little, wonderful man that is making it so much harder to leave this place. I want to take him with me and if I were to stay in some place and leave the race, this would be the place I would do it. However, I know that is not the will of God. I will say it is very likely I will make my way back here. Not just because this place is quite possibly the prettiest place I have ever been, but the ministry is amazing. I have been challenged in so many ways this month, but I would have to say I have grown the most here too.
My request to God currently is that Friday comes slowly. That I can truly appreciate each moment I am given here. That I appreciate the men and women I am surrounded by. That I do not pass up a single chance to love the children here. To pour into their lives. To be here and not think of home and the what if's that exist today and will exist tomorrow.
