Four years ago today I saw my papa getting carried out of my home in a body bag. So needless to say today is not a day for delightful memories. At the same time, today I am being challenged to remember every moment and detail of that day and to let it go and give it up to God. To be reminded of the feelings that the event holds and release them.
From the early sunrise of that morning to the chaos that occured and changed my life and lives around me forever. The truth of the matter is without that day I would not be here. My life would be in a completely different place. I would not have made friends with the people I adore if it weren't for that day. I would likely have not ever gone on a missions trip and fallen in love with the field and the whole world.
I am learning the appreciation for terrible days and moments. Not always in the moment of them but in the aftermath of such things. Learning to let go and not carry the burden of grief, and other burdens that I need not carry but do anyway.
I started reading a book today that has seemed go along exactly with the idea of letting go and letting God. It is called "Travelling Light" by Max Lucado. Although, I am not finished it I am finding it to be well fitting for areas of my life where I have held onto things that I have not needed to.
