I was having a convo with one of my only friends at work about a co-worker who I thought was younger but turns out to be older (42 hahah i know thats not that old…. jk) and he isn’t married. I said, “oh, wow. I hope I’m not 42 and not married.” He had said, “No that won’t happen to you. the guy you end up with will be very very lucky and blessed to have you in his life.” I paused for a second and said, “I’m not trying to sound conceited but I’d like to think so. I mean I know i’m not the most beautiful person but I can be charming (insert gross smile) and funny…” Then he said, “and you are Confident. You are the most confident person I have ever met.”
The very first thing that popped into my head was, “Amen, Father, because that is all you and not me!”
I was sooo excited because for the first time in my life I know that my confidence is in God…. not what I think people expect it to be or what I fake it to be, it is all HIM.
ive been blessed with an amazing group of besties. they live, breathe, exude confidence.
I was chatting with one of my besties, David G. and we were talking about how we especially can attribute our confidence to our lows and being so broken and everything we thought was us was stripped away- so we had to find that confidence in God alone.
I’m just so thankful and blessed to be where I am at with my relationship with God. In comparison to last year where I was so lost and so broken to where I am at now, i am just sooooooo thankful. I cant wait to see where Ill be at in my relationship with him next year. and the next….just to keep on growing in him, towards him and in love with him.
my heart and prayers go out to those right now that are broken in spirit. i pray that they allow god to hold their hands/carry them out of this and even though it may be hard to realize now….but its a beautiful place to be in because it can only get better. (something I have to remind myself many times also.)
love you all. i promise ill get better at this blogging thing and keep everyone updated more.
