We were asked to write a blog about how we felt before leaving on this mission trip… Here is what I’m expecting…
I’m sure my feelings will change about The World Race within the next 9 months. They already change daily. One minute I’m absolutely overjoyed, the next, I feel I am completely unworthy and that I should not go.
I am so ecstatic that God wants me to do this. I’ve found myself, where I know no else is around to look to see if anyone is there, and just raise my hands up and yell, “YESS!!!!” then proceed to look around to make sure no one saw me.
On the other hand, I feel that in preparation to the WR and while on the field, I am going to be spiritually attacked constantly. Issues that I thought were done with have seemed to rise again, feelings of unworthiness, emptiness, loneliness and just heartbreak have started to arise. It sucks, but in the same sense it’s exciting because I know God wants me here and the devil knows that I am up to something he does not want me to be a part of. I realize that going through the junk will be worth it. I find that at my weakest I have been looking to Ephesians 6:10-20, “The Armor of God” and it quickly empowers me and I feel ready to overcome what Satan throws at me and fight with the armor of God. It beautifully paints the picture of how we should be WARRIORS FOR CHRIST with a breastplate
of righteousness, feet with readiness that comes from the gospel of
peace, with a shield of faith, belt of truth, helmet of salvation, and sword of the spirit.
of righteousness, feet with readiness that comes from the gospel of
peace, with a shield of faith, belt of truth, helmet of salvation, and sword of the spirit.
I expect to:
-fall in LOVE with GOD over and over.
-BE BROKEN (for people, of what I think I know, for my teammates)
-Experience God’s beauty in ways never imagined.
-Cry for those who have never experienced God’s love, those that feel trapped, those that love unconditionally and cry happy tears for those that find God and because everything WR related has already made me a weepy mess.
– miss my family, friends and the comforts of my life. (Chickfila)
-be sick. (unfortunately, I have a week immune system and sometimes when the weather changes, I get a bit sick but then again Texas weather can go from 37 to 78 degrees in the same day.)
-live life fully without regrets and let my light shine! (luceat lux vestra)
-DANCE!!!!!!!!! (I will learn a different dance from every country!)
-eat a different type of carb in every country (bread, rice, etc.)
-to be tired physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally.
-to be uncomfortable in certain situation and learn to fully rely on God.
-see God’s sense of humor and see what mishaps happen to me along the way.
-not shower every day. (oh wait, i already don’t shower everyday…. hahah just kidding!!!!)
-smile and laugh an enormous amount.
-not be okay at times.
-delve in deeper to the woman that God has created me to be.
-to come back a stronger, confident completely changed woman.
I am so excited!!! : ) yaaaay!
