My biggest dream is to choose God’s plan for me over my own. Whenever faced with something, I want to trust in Him and go wherever He calls me to go.
I’ve been thinking about the World Race for a while now, but never really thought this opportunity would come true. I fell in love with international ministry and experiencing different cultures, but sometimes my dreams seem a little too far fetched. One night I couldn’t sleep and the World Race just kept running through my mind. Before I knew it I was applying online and then I was trying to figure out what just happened. After applying it started to sink in more, but so did all of my fears. Was I ready for this physically, emotionally, and spiritually? How would I raise all of that money? Am I willing to give up my life here and leave everyone and everything? But then I doubted that I would even get accepted. The next few days I prayed harder than I have ever in my life. I wanted this so bad, but at the same time if it wasn’t God’s plan for me I didn’t want it to happen. I knew He would take care of me and that whatever happened I would be okay with, but I was beginning to be overcome with doubts.
For school we read the story of the Rich Young Ruler (Matthew 19, Mark 10) and all I wanted was to choose God over me. My biggest prayer was that I would listen to God’s calling and trust in Him. I want to give up my life and live for Him, no matter what He has planned. Monday, I got the call. I was in HyVee doing homework, and before I knew it I was trying to contain my emotions so not everyone in HyVee would be looking at me. I got to my car and called my mom and shared this amazing news with her. I was ecstatic, nervous, sad, thrilled, and scared all at the same time. I didn’t know why I was crying, but that was happening too! And each time I shared the news with someone else, I would be flooded with all of these emotions all over again, but it was beautiful. This was my chance to completely trust in God and give up my life, and that’s just what I’m going to do.
I’m still trying to grasp the fact that I will be loving on people in 11 different countries for 11 months. Yes I’m nervous, but I’m trusting the One who put me here.
So, next October, I will be traveling to: Philippines, Malaysia, Thailand, Cambodia, Zimbabwe, Zambia, Malawi, Romania, Moldova, Ukraine, and Latvia. I will more than likely be an emotional wreck for the majority of the time, but it will definitely be worth it.
I would love it if you would travel along on this adventure with me through prayer or financial support, here’s a link: Support Me!, and you can also subscribe to my blog and stay in touch!
Thank you so much for the part you’ve played in my story, and all that you’ve done to help shape me into the person I am today.
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
