"MIchael, I want you to go on The World Race," God said with a loud booming voice. Ok, not really, but I really wish He would have. That would make this process a lot easier. Don't you think?
The purpose of the this blog is to tell you how I felt called to go on this amazing adventure, but as I retrace my steps to when I think the call originated I realize it was preceded by another event in my life. Therefore, I have concluded that everything that happens in our lives is entangled and integrated together making the call one continuous mission that originated before the foundations of the earth. From my very first breath, God had already planned for me to partake in this trip and bigger and better things in the future. "The best is yet to come."
My mom told me many times when I was younger about how I was a miracle baby, and the doctors thought for sure I was going to die. She said that God spoke to her in a dream and said that I was going to be different and that He had a special plan and was going to use me in a big way. I believe that with all my heart.
Throughout my life I have always had a unique relationship with God. I just always clicked with Him and carried Him with me wherever I went. Sometimes I drug Him to places He didn't want to go, but all the while I felt Him with me and we communicated so well. More times than not however I trusted in my feelings and my works to guide me and used that as a template in where I stood in His good graces. It caused me to compare myself to other christians. I felt as though I was doing better than some people so I must be pleasing God. If I sinned I was worried I wasn't saved anymore. I would be scared to death that God was going to punish me until I repented. It was a miserable outlook on God, and I'm sure He was frustrated at how I was, but at the same time He saw far into the future and was excited for the day when I would be struck with the epiphany of what true love and grace really was. I can just picture Him getting excited everyday because He new that it was going to be x more days until we could start a real relationship.
"Ok there's one day down, just 903 more to go."
When I finally reached that point I thought it was going to be all down hill from there. Turns out that I was way off. We had to get a lot of junk out of my life and it was time to get dirty. I did not like this and I told God many times how much I didn't like it. I had a plan for my life and He was ruining it. And He did it beautifully I might add. We began this relationship and I climbed to a whole new level of my relationship with Him. At that point I was hooked and I just couldn't give up and He supplied all the strength to get through that I needed and more.
I began to go through a season of depression. I felt as though there wasn't anyone around that I could talk to who would understand the point I was at in my life. It caused me to feel alone and trapped and I have to admit I was angry with God. How could He let me feel this way and claim to love me so much?! It took a couple of years, but I heard someone say in the midst of that, "rise up and heal" and at that moment it hit me like a ton of feathers (Mind you a ton is still a ton whether it be bricks or feathers, but there seemed to be a little more love in it so I picture feathers) God has already won this battle and I refuse to let the devil take my joy away from me. After all it is MINE!! I began to realize what God was teaching me in the midst of all the lonliness. He stripped me of all my comforts including people and all that was left was just me and Him. I found out the hard way that He is more than enough and that's all I need. After that realization I stepped to yet another level of my relationship with Him. At this point I realize that this whole relationship thing is a huge roller coaster but there is always a beautiful transition and I've got too much invested now to give up. It gets easier to trust as the trials come (they definitely don't get easier, just easier to hand over to God).
This current call for the world race though I guess was birthed from a passion to stop injustice around the world. I want to fight for those who can't fight and teach those who can fight…to fight. I have a righteous anger build up inside me when I see injustice and corruption. I burn with a heated passion to stop it whether it be child soldiers, sex trafficking, or even political corruption in which someone thinks they can take advantage of me and the rest of the world. I refuse to just stand back and let it happen. NO! God has given me hands and feet and with those I want to be a warrior fighting and not fearing those who are preceived too big to be taken down… Forgive me, I'm getting a little carried away, but I'm serious 🙂 I will change the world! If you would like to join me I would love for you to accompany me and help, but if you don't then stand back because God is about to move on this earth and His spirit is about to blow and I want to be on the front lines ushering Him in.
Well that's my story. I feel as though I could go on, but I'm hungry and I want to go eat.
