“It is one of the most difficult, yet critical, disciplines
of the Christian life to allow the Holy Spirit to bring us into absolute
harmony with the teaching of Jesus…” -Oswald Chambers
You would think that after following hard after Jesus these
past 10 months that it would be easy to follow the teachings of Jesus, but the
truth is, in some cases, for me, its still hard. I was just looking over Matthew 6:33 where it
says, “But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these
things will be added to you.” I read
this passage, and recognize it as truth, but find it hard to follow it
fully. I know that God will provide all
that I need, but I still wonder where my next meal with come from, where I’ll
sleep next, how I’ll get to my next destination and so on, but when I look at
this passage, it says that I just need to seek the kingdom of God and his
righetousness and the rest will take care of itself.
The next passage then tells us not to be anxious about
tomorrow. What a mind blowing
passage. I mean, really, its mind
blowing. Don’t worry about tomorrow,
yeah right. How can I not worry about tomorrow, I have no idea what tomorrow
holds! Then I remember this thing I
overlook in these instances…faith. Faith
in God and the fact that He cares enough for me to take care of me in all
situations at all times. I remember
this, and then I’m able to relax for a moment, but soon I’ll forget again.
On this Race, I’ve seen God provide in so many ways that it
continues to blow my mind, yet I am so fragile minded that I forget in an
instant when things become rough or uncertain.
I’m just like the Israelites.
Putting those words out there is hard, and it challenges me
just looking over them again to make a change. A change that says God is in control, not me, and I KNOW He has my best
interest at heart. Even in the rough
patches. So here goes, I’m laying myself
down one more time and telling God, “I’m all yours and everything I do is for
you, lead the way…”
Pray for me…10 months in and its still hard
