God has really been working in me lately. I can’t seem to get enough of His word, which is awesome seeing as I will need all of the knowledge and wisdom that I can get going into this amazing mission. His word is just so perfect. No matter what we are going through in our lives, it is in there, its been dealt with, and there is a promise that we’ll get through it with Gods help.
Not too long ago I felt God telling me to pray over a young girl in the hospital I work at. She was under suicide precautions and had to be watched 24/7 until she was transfered to a facility that was better equipped to help her. So like I said, I felt God telling me to pray over her. I quickly replied with a “No problem God! I’ll get right on it….right before I leave for the day…” I didn’t want either of us to feel weird if she didn’t like what God had to say through me and I sat there for the entire day after I prayed over her. He was persistant though, but I just wasn’t listening. I was determined to do it when it was most convienient. Soon after my debate with God on when the best timing would be, I got a trainee, and after that, the girls family came in and she was discharged. I lost my chance.
God wanted to work in that girls life through me, and I got in the way. Now, I know that He was still able to reach this girl without me, but I couldn’t help but feeling sorrow and that pit-in-your-stomach feeling wouldn’t go away. I should have listened when He was speaking to me…I failed….
God knew what I was going to do in those moments though. God, in His infinite wisdom, used that moment in my life as a teaching opportunity. He was telling me that reading His word is great, but it isn’t always enough. I need to be willing to listen to Him, even when it may not be convienient for me. He wants to use us for His glory, and to bring others to Him, but we have this nasty little problem of getting in the way. I was humbled that day, and I pray that He continues to humble me and that I stop getting in the way of furthering His kingdom again!
The sad truth is, I will get in the way again. I’m human. I’m flawed. But He is perfect. Praises be to God that He has so much grace and mercy that he forgives us and restores us every time we fail Him. What an awesome God we have!
I can not wait to see what God has in store for us on the Race! The things we will see, the people we will meet and the message we have the privilage of sharing are beyond comprehension! I just pray that we all succum to His voice and act when He tells us to move. He has so much love to give! What an honor it is to be one of the people God chose to show it!
Side note: Its really sad to see that viewer ratings are so high for shows like Divorce Court. If they just looked to God, he could work miracles in their lives…but again, we have a habit of getting in the way.
