So, tonight is my last night at training camp for the Race. What can I say about this week? First let me tell you that when the 24th came and it was time for me to make my way to training camp, all I can say was I was overwhelmed with fear, and for everyone who knows me that is not me at all. I was having doubt, Satan was putting things in my head like Michael, can you really leave everything for a YEAR? Your family, friends to go out to places you’ve never been with people you don’t know? I was terrified. God quickly got rid of that fear. On the second night of camp God BROKE me in a way that i have never felt. I was sitting in a chair weeping, and Momma C (a squad coach, and a truly amazing woman, I love her!) was praying with me. When one of the WR Squad leaders came up to me and started to Prophecy over me. He told me that God wanted me to bow down or go to the front. So i walked to to the front and got on my hands and knees and started to scream out to my Father. I told Him how sorry I was for my past and for the people that i’ve hurt. It was amazing.
In that moment I felt God release me from everything. From my past sins, from my burdens, from my thoughts that I’m not good enough, that God doesn’t love me as much as He loves others, from thoughts I wasn’t praying or worshiping in the right way.
He told me…
He is proud of me.
He loves my creativity.
He loves the way I worship.
That when I close my eyes to pray/worship, It’s just me and Him.
He made me the way I am.
He doesn’t want me to forget who I am.
He loves me more than I can imagine.
He has forgiven me for my past.
And He knows who I am!
My chains were gone!
Gloria a Dios!
And that was only one night… Stay tuned for more!
