God loves me more than I could ever imagine. We are currently (22nd -29th) in a new location – relocated because our living environment became unhealthy. Only under extreme circumstances do World Race teams move mid-month. Thankfully, our support system was there to move us right away when that became the only option.
We honestly felt like we were being rescued, but it was a hard decision for me to process. First, though there was conflict with another person, they are no more sinful than me, in no more need of grace. I thought it was fine for us to be in that environment as we all seek to emulate Christ. But I was wrong. What occurred hurt, but it didn’t bother me and that wasn’t good.
Second, we had the opportunity to work with dear godly people and their ministries, under the support of Christ Church Sybrand Park. We were loath to leave them. And even more sorry to leave the New Dawn feeding scheme and the Living Sports ministry which care for impoverished kids from abusive homes. I kept feeling guilty that we were more hurtful than helpful to come and not stay. But the guilt I felt was not of God. He had us where we started for a reason and He had us where He moved us for a reason; for His greatest glory. In a sense it is silly to worry, thinking that I can control God’s glorification or keep it from happening when He is trustworthy no matter what.
Once again, it seems like God worked this displacement just for me (‘again’ because it seemed like God worked training camp out just for me too). God showed me His love in a new way! Considering the mercy, commitment, gratitude, and compassion God put in my heart for our first ministry, leaving was difficult. Because there was so much at stake, I was amazed to see God value us so much that He moved us anyway. Once we moved, we were clearly supposed to be there then, just as much as we were supposed to be at the first place earlier. It was cool that God made that clear to us. This experience has changed the way I see incidents from the past and contributed to my healing. Definitely a reason to praise God!
This was originally written after our move, when we were serving in Oceanview. I had time to type it while waiting for a bus to Nelspruit two days ago. (I’m typing on my phone so it takes a while 🙂 Most of this weekend is free! So maybe I’ll get to post this then.
Starting this evening we have debrief for a few days before heading to our second location. The time has flown. The entire trip will feel like two weeks at this rate, with each day stuffed.
Please pray for me to gain wisdom to know how to challenge myself to grow deeper in my relationship with God. Please pray for people to surround me who can challenge and guide me spiritually. Also, please pray for me to grow in my understanding of my unique role for God’s glory and that I live it out.
I love you! Comment or email prayer requests please.
Love,
Meredith
