What can I say about this last month in Nepal…it was not my best moment. I had made such great expectations about what Nepal was going to be like. I thought Nepal would be cold and there would be mountains everywhere. I basically thought we would be on top of Mount Everest for the month. But alas it was nothing like I was expecting. We were about 20 kl from the Indian border, there were no mountains in site, and it was extremely hot. I was so mad, I felt like I was getting India round 2. Don’t get me wrong I loved India, it has been my favorite country so far but I was ready for a new country.
My heart wasn’t in this past month, it wasn’t ministry, and it wasn’t in my team.
Our squad mentor spoke a few days ago on expectations and how it is good to have expectations. The hard part about expectations is your attitude when those expectations are not met. I didn’t have a good attitude when my expectations were not what I thought they were going to be. I ruined my time in Nepal and I hindered the Kingdom all because I was focused on myself.
During my teams debrief this week my coach asked my team which trinity we were operating in, were we operation in the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit or in Me, Myself, and I. I was operating in Me, Myself, and I.
I feel like I wasted this past month and that missed opportunity to further the Kingdom. I can’t dwell on my mistakes this past month, God works because of me and despite of me.
