The last month has been full of ups and downs. Days of sadness and confusion. Worry and doubt. With a few days of peace here and there.
After close to 2 years of doctors visits, medicine, and many diet changes, the doctors finally found answers. Only, not the answer I was expecting. I was diagnosed with Celiac disease, which means I have to eat completely gluten free. This isn’t a diet because I want it to be, it’s a lifestyle change that will always be with me.
My life kind of stopped for a while. I was hit with the confusion of not knowing where the Lord was calling me to. Is it possible to be gone for a year and eat gluten free? Is it safe? Is the Lord trying to tell me something through this diagnosis? Why has my fundraising been going so well if he is asking me to stay home?
These were all serious questions running through my head, whether they were right or not, they happened.
Through prayer and much, much counsel, I was able to work through all of these questions and at the end of the day trust that the Lord’s hand was on the situation.
The Lord gave me a heart for oversees missions and for the first time in my life, I wasn’t sure if that was where he was calling me to. I had to work through all of these feelings and let me tell you, it was anything but easy.
This I declare about the Lord; He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; he is my God, and I trust him. Psalm 91:2
These sweet words brought me peace and hope during the times where I couldn’t quite understand what was going on. I realized I don’t always need to understand but I always need to trust in the Lord. I always need to remember He alone is my God, he is my refuge and my place of safety.
My Place of Safety, I was clinging to this daily.
So this week I had my first check up and though I hadn’t felt the Lord tell me I shouldn’t go, I wasn’t sure what the doctor would say. I was at peace in knowing if the doctor felt it unsafe for me to go, the Lord had a plan for me right here at home and that was okay. The Lord’s way is obviously way better than mine but I’m not going to lie, I was nervous. I want to share to the people across the world that may not have ever heard the gospel or felt the Lord’s love.
Much to my surprise the doctor is totally fine with me leaving. I will have to go through check ups and tests when I get back home but for now, THE LORD IS TRUSTING ME WITH HIS WORK ON THE WORLD RACE. I couldn’t be more excited for what he has called me to and can’t wait to continue on this journey.
So, for any of you praying for me over this last month, Thank you.
Thank you to anyone praying for my journey across the world, I can’t wait to share it with you guys. With that being said, I am officially ordering the shirts tomorrow. I will order a few extras for anyone who has missed out on telling me you want one!
Thank you for your continued prayers and support!
