We made it to launch! By God’s grace everyone has arrived and each of my squad-mates was provided with the funds in order to launch!! ($6500 each)
It has been a whirlwind to say the least…my days thus far have been packed with training sessions, meetings, reuniting with squad-mates and teammates and a whole lot of emotions! Being a team leader, I’ve had to go through some extra training sessions…and in those I’ve learned more about my upcoming responsibilities. To be honest, the word ‘overwhelmed’ comes to me when I think of all the info I learned today and all that is to come.
During one of the training sessions, we took some time to seek what the Lord was telling us and had some time to sit and be still (which was so wonderful because stillness has been so hard to come by in this past week!) In that time the 2 words I heard the Lord keep repeating was TRUST and REST.
I love that our Father knows just what we need to hear! With those 2 words he was able to reassure and calm my soul about what he has set before me and what he has called me into. He reminded me that stress and fear is not of him, he desires rest and peace for his people. I realized that so often my stress and ‘un-restfulness’ (I realize that’s not a word but just go with it!) comes from my lack of trust.
When I begin to depend on myself and try to look within myself for the answers is when I become stressed. I have a choice- -I can choose to depend on myself and carry the burden alone, or I can choose to embrace Jesus’ words in Matthew 11:28…”Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”… I have to consciously choose the latter.
What I have come to know…
I am weak, I am incapable, I am unable.
But he is strong, he is capable, he is able.
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly in my weakness, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9
The words of one of the songs we sang tonight really rang true in my soul:
“I may be weak, but your Spirit’s strong in me,
My flesh may fail, but my God you never will.”
So, Lord, I release it to you. I lay my burdens at your feet and accept the rest you want to bring to my soul. I trust in you and in your provision, in your faithfulness, in your strength. May you be glorified by showing your strength in the midst of my weaknesses. You, O Lord, are strong, you are capable, you are able. Thank you for knowing my heart and desiring my rest and peace.
May your kingdom come and your will be done, in Jesus’ name.
“But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me.” Psalm 13:5-6
Amen.
