Really guys, I don't think that this trip couldn't be life changing.

Are my expectations too high?  I really don't think that I could traipse around the globe, seeing the needy and abandoned, for 11 months and smoothly transition back into life as I currently know it.  I see this trip as an investment in the kingdom of God.  Does that sound weird?  I think this trip is going to impact me so deeply that I impact others around me because of it.  I'm not sure what that impact looks like, but I am sure that I wasn't born on this side of the world just to splash around in the pool of life's pleasures.  No, no.  Not I or you were born here without some kind of mission. 

There's an entire hungry, dying world out there!  And I'm sleeping under a duvet tonight!  And I'm writing this on a computer!  On my lap!

I think I'm going to see the earth in a wider perspective.  I'll shake off my tunnel vision of North America and see the world for what it is… diverse and lush and dirty and heartbreaking.  And spinning.  Still spinning. 

I think it will become increasingly hard to sleep under this duvet after having seen devastation that I'm sure I will see on this trip.  I think it's going to give me some sleepless nights wondering "why" and hopefully a fuel and energy to stop asking "why" and start asking "how" and then a desire to see it to completion.

I want to get shook in my core and then planted in the same thing that shook me. 

I will want to share these stories afterwards, shake others, encourage the planting of others, always anticipating the harvest. 

I expect to have dirty feet and hair that begins to "dread" itself.  I expect to sing a lot, take 40 000 pictures, and cry.  I expect to be a blessing and to be blessed, challenged, and inspired.  I expect that I will get schooled numerous times in various knowledge and skill sets.  Setting up my tent will likely be the first experience of this. 

I expect to fall in love, deeper and deeper, with the God of man and nature, compelled to tell that love story for the rest of my days.  I expect to see the world for what it's worth.