“as soon as you let go of who you've been told you are – and think you need to be – you're going to find an amazing place of FREEDOM girl…I cannot wait to see you in this place of reckless-Melissa-ness.”
A good friend spoke this truth over me tonight.
This past month has literally been insane…. Here’s a small glimpse….
I spent two weeks in Gainesville serving high school kids.
One week in Tennessee serving future world racers.
Had my heart healed (literally)
Gained $2500 in my support account within a three- day time span.
And was adopted into an amazing new community.
Alright… so I have never experienced God how I have been this past month.
It’s been great… but also hard…
The hardest thing for me has been to let go.
It’s easy to say you “let go” of something… and just throw it in a “closet.”
But hard to actually mean it… and 100% honestly let go of things.
So that’s where I’m at.. learning to let go… again.. of things that I thought were gone. Letting go of who I have been told I am by society, and who I think I need to be for others… and learning to step into who God is calling me to be. God’s been opening up wounds that I thought were healed 7 years ago… and saying… “Hey Melissa, remember when this happened… and you just threw it in that closet…. Yeah well its time for US to deal with it.”
I am finally broken.. (in such a good way).. God’s wrecked my world completely and is building it back up… how He wants it and always intended it to be. He’s teaching me to depend on Him… Completely. And presenting me opportunities that will force me to fully depend on Him if I choose.
Right now I am in a season of letting go. Some days it’s sunny, and others its pouring down rain. Regardless of the weather, it’s a daily process…. Of making the choice to depend on God to help me through this… To start the healing process he wanted for me a long time ago… so that I can begin to walk in the FREEDOM He desires for me. It’s good…. Real good!
What’s your season like? God always gives us a choice. So what is yours? What are you holding onto that is keeping you from becoming who God needs you and wants you to be? Are you willing to let things go and step into the Freedom that God desires for you?
Try it.
I dare you!
