Its funny.. how God works. How he does anything and everything to break you down and get you to where he needs you to be.. Regardless of how much we run away, he still continues to pursue us.
This week, my biggest struggle has been letting go. If any of you truly know me… you know that I hold onto everything. I keep it all bottled up inside until I just can’t hold anymore… then I just explode. Well that happened this week.
My life has been on overload since February 2006. There has always been something, and all I have done is kept going and going.. like the energizer bunny… Going full force…. 24/7.
I lost my daddy.
I gained a new Abba.
I lost many friends.
I gained so many new ones.
I’ve fallen.
God picked me back up.
I’ve messed up.
God saved me.
I graduated college.
I’ve wondered around with no direction.
God prepared my path… which I am now determined to follow.
This past week has helped me realize all of this. So often we get caught up in our own worlds and our own drama and mess, that we don’t take the time to just stop and see the big picture…. The big picture is not about us. We get so caught on ourselves that we don’t take the time to grow up and realize who God wants and needs us to be.
For me, this next year is about growing….. becoming the woman of God, which God needs me to be. Letting go of the mindset of my own world so that others can see, instead of an image of me, a mirror image of God.
It’s a work in progress, which I am totally aware of. But I also know that God has pulled me away from so many “soul ties” this week, which I thought would have been impossible.
As Christians, and humans, we all have a choice. For me, it’s a choice to let things hold me down, or rely on the truth of who I am now. My decisions were my decisions. My past is my past. The truth is… I am now free. I cannot dwell on the past and all that has happened, but I can and will dwell on the future and where God has brought me.
So I leave you with this……. Take it how you want it…. For me, its throwing away one particular mindset and resting in the fact that the truth is…..
Healing comes in the Morning.
