Brief note
before I begin…..

I fully believe
that God can make two people, who are meant to be together, find one another
online. He is the God of the impossible, and He will have His way. So please
understand that I am not knocking online dating in any way.
I am simply letting you know why it is an issue
for me. 

I felt convicted
about joining, because I was doing exactly what God had placed on my heart not
to do,
back when I was in
Thailand.
I felt that I needed to confess to male friendships, that my motives
in being friends with them was not pure. I also felt I needed to ask for
forgiveness, and afterwards the Lord opened my eyes about how I was behaving. I
was still acting like the seductress, putting myself out there to be seen.
Even something as simple as making an online
profile, was me putting myself out there.

The Lord has
made me promises.
By my actions, I
was making a statement to Him, that I don’t trust Him to fulfill those
promises. I also made the statement that I needed to take control of the my
life…even though I had already given it to Him completely. 

As I continue
to study the difference between a Proverbs 7 woman and a Proverbs 31 woman, I
see clearly who the Lord has called me to be. 

Proverbs
7 -Adulteress

Proverbs 31-
Woman of Noble Character

loud (makes
herself seen)

clothed in
strength and dignity (it’s not about her appearance)

dresses like a
prostitute

her husband is
respected

disrespectful   

generous

forward

diligent

she pursues

provides for her
family (its about others)

crafty  

selfish 

plants vineyards
(sows)

persuasive words

lamp does not go
out at night (full of the light of Christ)

seduces with her
speech

brings him good
ALL the days of her life (before she even meets him and after)

charming but
deceptive

trusts in God for
her family

uses her beauty
to manipulate

makes coverings
for her bed

her path leads to
death            

SHE is clothed in
fine linen and purple (royalty)

covered her bed
in colored linens from Egypt (deception- as if she is royalty-but is not)                 

speaks with
wisdom

perfumes her
bed  (to mask the smell of her deceit)

a watchman                 

Women: who would
you rather be?

Men: who would
you rather have as your wife?

Please continue to
lift my finances up in prayer….fighting hard to see my squad at month 8 and
11 debrief.