Growing up, I was always told I needed to stay a virgin until I was married. However, I was never really told why, it was just understood, this is what good girls are “supposed” to do.
Well…epic fail in that department. Love will do that to you sometimes….
Let me re-phrase that, Lust will do that to you sometimes.
Love could not erase the shame I felt, for not waiting. It took me down this awful spiral of not being good enough, letting jealousy be the motivation behind my actions, and becoming a slave to sin.
But….
God is so much bigger than my circumstances and my sin. He found me, in the midst of my shame and feelings of being tainted, and He rescued me and redeemed me. He showed me how He saw me….through His eyes, I was:
- Pure
- Beautiful
- Holy
- Worthy to be pursued.
- Worthy to be waited for.
- A treasure of great value.
And it has changed my life. Now I CHOOSE to keep myself pure.
Why?
Because this is how I worship the Lord:
Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your
bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God–this is your
spiritual act of worship. (Romans 12:1)
Over the summer, a friend asked me, “Are you still saving yourself?” I said “Yes”, but I really didn’t know how to answer why I made this choice. I couldn’t fully express it, but I found someone who can: