My plan when I came home from the race, was to live in Orlando with my sister for a year. I was planning on being the director for Burn 24-7, and blazing up this city with vertical worship (between believers and God) and intercession. For some reason, God closed every possible door that would allow me to sustain myself in Orlando. Mike Paschall, my wonderful spiritual father, asked me to put this on the shelf and see if God had other plans for me. To my surprise, He certainly did : ) As most of you know, I will be leading a Real Life trip. The group will be made up of 11 college-aged students, listening to God’s heart, and following Him wherever He goes. As for now, I am on the trip going to Uganda. I will find out my definite destination in about 5 days. I know a lot of terrible things are happening in this country at the moment, but why should I fear, especially when the Lord promises this : “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9 It’s been difficult being in America where society is all about success, prestige, status, and material possessions. People don’t understand why I’m 30 years old, penniless, unmarried, and CHOOSE to give up everything and go back out into the nations. Well its simple really…..God has taken me up into His purpose and there is no turning back. It’s impossible for me to go back to “normal life” as the world sees it, when the faces of people in suffering are etched into my heart. How can I get into my nice car, go home to my own place, and spend money on myself left and right, when others are suffering? I just can’t do it! I CHOOSE to lose sight of myself, and let God use me as He wills. I will not have self-pity because that is from the enemy. I CHOOSE to believe that the Lord is always faithful and always good. I trust Him with my life and if He chooses to take it, because it will benefit the Kingdom, then so be it. What greater place to be, then in the arms of the Lord? : ) Kim Walker said it best: God is a fire that can’t be tamed, a fire that won’t be put in a box, a fire that won’t be contained, a fire that won’t be put out. God is an all-consuming fire. It burns in me…I can’t ignore it….I am completely addicted. He is perfect, blameless, gave up EVERYTHING….even His own life for me. How could I not do the same for Him?
