I wish I would have saved the text my roommate Leah sent to me after I found out that I been accepted to the World Race.

Why?

It had one simple word: LAMP

Now, most people would be confused by that. And no, this isn't a moment from Ron Burgundy. She's not telling me she loves lamp.

She was reminding me of my mantra.

In the process leading up to applying for the Race [which you can read about here]
I
 kept telling people the same thing.
 

"I don't really know what I will do if  don't get in but I know that I just need to keep walking this path. I won't see much because all God has promised me is a lamp. I don't need to see farther then that."

I didn't know much at the time but I knew I didn't need to worry about my future. I just needed to keep moving forward. I needed to keep following the lamp lit path. And whenever I thought of the passage in Psalms I got a little more calm. [And I thought of the old worship song I used to sing in High School]

And I kept thinking that. The whole way. Whenever someone would come at me with something not so positive- I woul repeat that in my head. Because sometimes conversations about the World Race get really negative. And you have to remember why you are doing what you are doing.

Fast Forward to now.

It's rough.

And in all honesty? I have not been handling it well. Just throwing it out there. I've sort of been failing at life. 
And this morning I sat and read my Bible and then for someone reason I was reminded of lamp. 

"Thy word is lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path"

and from the message

"By your words I can see where I'm going; they throw a beam of light on my dark path"
[psalm 119:105]
 
I took a deep breath and remembered everything I had said prior to training camp.

God's word is a lamp. I don't need to know that is farther then the light it gives me. I can do this. I have done this . I just need to put one foot in front of the other and walk in HIS truth today. 
 
So I made this sign:

And I am hanging on my mirror as a reminder.

This season means something to me. As rough as it has been it has a place on my path.

 

(and remember that cheesy worship song? Here it is)