MY HEART IS EXPLODING! The excitement that I have at this moment is unexplainable and undoubtedly from the Lord. The fire is lit and I'm ready. Ready to follow my Father, ready to meet the people that He has in store for me, ready to live simply, ready to be His hopeful wanderer. But most importantly, I'm ready to go deeper and experience the Lord, Jesus and the Spirit like I never have before.
For anyone who knows me, this probably comes as quite a shock for you [because it definitely is to me!]. Let's just say, I'm known to be the emotional one in the group, the one who cries at the drop of a hat and who would rather sneak out in the middle of the night than say goodbye for a year. And the thought of having to do all of this in these upcoming days had put me in a front row seat on an emotional rollercoaster. Thinking of all the tearful goodbyes, the stress of packing my life away for a year into one bag, and having to leave my parents in Atlanta, excitement didn't make it's appearance often. But man, HOW THE LORD IS SO GOOD! How He has not only diminished my fears, anxiety, and overwhelming emotions but replaced them with His gentle love, abounding joy and steady peace.
I am beyond excited to be reunited with my V squad and Team SOZO and begin this journey with them, learning and growing from each of them that the Lord has specifically put on this squad. To be in constant community with them where prayer, encouragement and support are so evident and where the Spirit is our common leader. What a year it's going to be growing from them.
I am beyond excited to meet the people that the Lord has prepared in advance for me to meet. The contacts I will working with in each country, the Unsung Heroes that He will lead me to, each child I will get to lavish His love over and the girls that I will get to speak His beauty and healing into. To think that He already knows every face I'm going to encounter, every story I'm going to hear and every hand I'm going to hold, makes me stand in awe and joyfully before my Father.
I am beyond excited for the struggles and the hardships to come, the pain that I will have to endure in order to grow deeper in my intimacy with my Father. I'm excited to find myself in a place of raw suffering for this is where unswerving trust and faith are birthed. This is where holy beauty is seen and lasting change occurs. I'm excited for my heart to be broken for the same things that breaks my Father's and to feel what my Daddy feels. To see it and experience real heartache, real struggle and have to solely depend on the Lord for comfort, I'm ready for that. I'm excited to find myself on my knees, calling out to my Father, yearning to feel Him in anyway possible. For this is where true intimacy will form, when I hide nothing and expose everything.
My prayer: Jesus, do anything You need to do in me, so that
You may do everything You want to do through me.
Lastly, I am beyond excited to experience my God like I never have before. To experience the Lord, Jesus and the Holy Spirit in their separate entities but powerful entireties. For my "God box" to be completely destroyed as I learn more of His love, His Son's character, and His Counselor's power. I'm ready to go deeper, to experience Him fully and to have a true loving daughter/Father relationship. To draw close, to dive in, to follow Him obediently. I'm so hungry for more of Him.
After writing this, my heart is pounding EVEN MORE WITH EXCITEMENT! About what's to come, what He has in store and how great the reward. In 4 short days, I will reunited with my squad and my sweet Team and in one week will be flying over the ocean to start this journey. Fears behind, anxiety diminished, I am EXCITED for what's to come. But I do ask for your prayers this week for there are still goodbyes ahead, packing to be done and letters to be written. I ask as my brothers and sisters in Christ that you continue to pray for genuine Christ-centered joy. That as Satan tempts me to feelings of fear, anxiety and sadness, the Lord would continue to lovingly whisper His truths in my ear. That I would continue to hear Him say "I've gone before you My Beloved and boy, do I have great things for you!"
LET THE COUNTDOWN BEGIN! FOUR DAYS TILL I SAY "SEE YOU LATER HIGH POINT!"
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