I made this video, but I'm not smart enough to load it, so this will have to do.
The recent happenings of my life is as follows:
I've started Saying goodbyes or see you later.
I've already started sleeping on the floor and I've cut off all my hair.
I'll take my last dose of live oral typhoid Friday (Just sounds so wrong) 
The roommate also had to for her Peru trip coming Up….Bonding Time With Typhoid…So Wrong. 
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Quit my job. Bye my People's…
And everything to pack up. Sounds weird But i'm thankful I don't have alot…
I had this wave of anxiety a couple days ago. I guess it comes and goes and I'll get real quiet and introverted just to cope with the awareness of what I'm about to embark on. The weightiness of the responsibility of walking out the gospel started to be a heavy load, with the lies of being told i'm under qualified by the devil crept into the cavities of my mind. I thought your burden was light, Lord? A friend stilled my thoughts with the simple reminder that it's God who opens doors. It's God who saves. It's all God and none of me.
Oh that's such a good thing!!!
I'm sure my Dad has encouraged me a lot over my 23 yrs but I think I toned him out for a long time and just didn't hear him. Some how he must have gotten a loud speaker or something because I now hear his super encouraging words and see his actions. Like you don't even understand, my family is blessed (Sorry I’m just now seeing it daddio). He's got this phrase though that he started before I even told him about the race. Just simply, “I'm proud of you Megan" came when I least expected it. I started hearing him when he said it when I couldn't think of a reason why: when I was alone, lost, feeling worthless and rejected. But that’s just my Dad….he's pretty great. He lets the Lord use him.
It makes my mind wonder of things to come. Can you just imagine when your ears get accustomed to God. My Father. The Big Man. When you see your sin before you and you feel lost, lone, worthless in front of a holy God. And he says "Well done, I'm proud of you. I love you. Welcome!!"
…Can you just imagine….
I think I will faint with pleasure. Become so weak in the knees…collapse. Cry tears of joy and have the biggest grin on my face. But what is joy when it’s locked away. I want others to experience that. To know the Jesus that takes your place.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light” (Matthew 11:28-30).
God I want to live. Father Breathe Life into these dry bones….Breathe Life into the nations.
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