“How long, O Lord must I call for help, but you do not listen? Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save? Why do you make me look at injustice? Why do you tolerate wrong? Destruction and violence are before me; there is strife, and conflict abounds. Therefore the law is paralyzed and justice never prevails. The wicked hem in the righteous so that justice is perverted.”
Habakkuk 1:2-4
I have been feeling like Habakkuk a lot lately. Have you ever read that book in the Old Testament? I had never really read it until recently. It’s basically this guy asking God why crappy stuff is happening in the world and why He is standing by letting it happen. I feel like that a lot here. Thailand is a place where Buddhism is the religion and Christianity is definitely not widespread. That’s pretty much how it has been all of Asia though, but it hasn’t hit me hard until now. Everywhere we go, walk, look there are things that are not of God. We go into the temples to talk to monks who are loyal to Buddha. We see people worshipping things that aren’t God. We go to the bars in the red light district and literally watch old white men grope Thai women. People are trapped in sex and idol worship, searching for something more—something that can only be fulfilled by the Lord.
It is hard for me to stay positive, to trust God is bigger than all of this. To believe God hates what is happening and He longs for His children to come to Him.
I have been realizing that I am a big picture person. I get excited thinking about how we can end sex trafficking/prostitution all together, but then I realize that’s probably not realistic. The truth is that God has a plan greater than mine and He will bring redemption to this earth. This is God’s response to Habakkuk:
“Look at the nations and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told.”
“For the earth will be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the Lord as the waters cover the sea.”
-Habakkuk 2:14
What an awesome response! God already has a plan for His people. And I get to be a part of it by hanging out with monks and people at the bars. And yeah, I’m most definitely not going to end all sex trafficking in the next two weeks I am here in Thailand, but I can love each person I meet. Because I believe that is what I am here to do, one person at a time.
And the even cooler thing is that we have been making friends here! We are meeting with girls outside of the bar, hanging out with the kids we see at night selling flowers, playing pool with the bar employees. We are learning to be bold and not hold back what we are doing here. It is all pretty amazing when I think about it, and definitely not something to be discouraged about. And the coolest part of it all is that what we are doing is not in vain. God is the perfect Author and He knows what He is doing!
I want to say thank you to all who have supported me financially thus far, I would not be here without you! That being said, I need $1200 to be fully funded. Pleaseeeeeee consider donating to me…. Seriously any amount will help! I love you all!
Megan 🙂
