Stepping in to a new

               I fear that I fear myself the most. It is me that holds me back, and it always has been. As I got to Guatemala I struggled with that right away. The feeling of unworthiness that I’m not good enough or spiritual enough, that I don’t have what it takes.  

               The 1^st night during worship those thoughts flooded my mind only to be interrupted by Christ through a brother in Christ, AJ. AJ spoke out something that the Lord gave him and I feel as if it was just for me. He said that there are some of us that may have fallen off of our bikes but God wants us to get up, get back on, and keep on peddling, don’t go back to the start line just keep on going, and don’t look back!

               Those words spoke straight to my heart. I was dwelling on my past and all the ways that I have stumbled and lost sight of Christ. But the beautiful thing about Christ is that He forgives and FORGETS! God doesn’t dwell on our past he looks forward to our future and growing in relationship with us.

               I too often struggle with this and I did again two nights ago. During our time of worship I could not get past myself and my fear of slipping back into my old self and the unworthy feelings. I have always been independent and good at doing my own thing, and I didn’t know if I could let God in to take over the control that I so desperately cling to. Again as these thoughts were flooding my mind a leader in AIM Allison came over touched the top of my head and told me that to Lord was telling her that I am no longer my past and that I am new and I can walk away from my old self and that I am good enough and I am his daughter and He loves me so much and wants me to let go of the past and move on as his daughter and new woman.

               I was Blown away, God is so amazing! And if that wasn’t enough I was called out by Tom Sipling (Tom n Cindy are our team parents, if you will) and he prophesied over me that I am on my way to be like Andy and Allison both amazing women of God and leaders in the World Race world. He said that God told him I would do amazing things and that the whole team needs to encourage me and hold me accountable as I go through this transition. Then he had the team and leaders all stand around me and pray for me and over me. Oh my goodness it was a little scary and overwhelming, and yet so amazing and uplifting. I felt, feel, so loved!

               I’ve got a long road ahead, and according to Allison and Andy it’s a looooooooong road! But I’m excited to see where God takes me, and how he will use me. I want to know Him more so that I can share Him with the world. God is love and joy, peace, mercy, grace, compassion, forgiveness, freedom,  and able! Who wouldn’t want to share that with the world!?!