Today at church we began a new season. It was the first sunday we offered mulitiple worship experiences and it was AMAZING. We kicked it off with a new series More or Less. Through out the sermon pastor talked about pride, letting go and letting God take control, and even how John spoke about getting out of the way so that Jesus could become greater and greater while he became less and less. It really opened my heart and mind to somethings that God has been trying to tell me the last couple of weeks.
Now I like to have a plan an idea of what is to come. I'm not to the point I plan out every minute of my life but I do like to have a general idea or schedule. While I am open to changes and spontanaty it is hard for me to not have any control over what is going on. As I applied and got accepted to the World Race I kept saying I know God will provide for me, and will guide me where he wants me through out. However I did not surrender it to him completely. I kept a little piece of it for myslef and decided I needed to plan out and start saving money for plane tickets and the other various expences to prepare to leave. I have also read different blogs from people on the race and heard stories from different people I know who are in the mission field in other areas now. All I think is WOW I can't wait for God to do that in my life. I look forward to everything that is coming and forget right now. I try to figure out what to expect over the next year and a half of my life.
God has been trying to tell me to live for right now there is so much for me here. I need to let go of the obsession to plan for the future and enjoy Him and his blessings in my life right now. So today I let go of my expectations for the months ahead of me. I let go of any worry or doubt for where the money for my preperations would come from. Most of all I let go of tomorrow so that I can open up my hands and my heart for today. While there are still some preperations that must be made and I do have to get things done for the race I am not worrying about them and praying over each and everyone.
I am slowly learning that God wants to join us…..he CHOOSES to join us, in all of our daily tasks. HOW AMAZING IS THAT!!! I was so blown away today by that realization and it is helping me to rely more on Him with all of the things in my life right now. So don't sweat even the small stuff God wants that to. When we tell God that we have this he lets us try to do it on our own but the reality is that we can't that is our pride talking. We need God and the peace and joy that he offeres us even in the small stuff. So I encourage you to let go. What ever you are holding onto and trying to do on your own let it go. Let God fill your life with the plans that he has for you and let him fill you with peace and joy. You won't regret it.
God bless
