I still don’t understand why God put me in the position of being a squad leader. Many times I don’t think I am adequate. Most of the time I don’t even feel like I am ready for this. I found myself saying things like: I don’t want to mess up, I hope I say the right things, I hope I do well. I realized that all those sentences start with “I.”
But then I remember—it’s not about me. It’s not about how well I perform, or how well I can handle certain situations. It’s about what God is going to do through me, so I don’t have to worry about that. I just have to trust Him and call on Him. I am His servant. I often start my prayers off with “Dear Lord…” and I mean it! He is the Lord of my life. He is my master. I am here to serve Him and to help see His plans through.
It’s not about me. It’s about our ministry and spreading the kingdom. It’s about helping others put God first in their lives. It’s about loving our neighbors. It’s ALL about God and His will.
I can’t be worried about my abilities, or if I am adequate for this position, because I know that with God I am adequate. He makes me sufficient. He will show up and He will strengthen me. With Him I am able and perfect for the job. With God I am confident and I can’t wait to learn and grow.
Lord,
Use me, speak through me, and help me see through your eyes. Align my heart with yours. Make my desires your desires. I want to serve Y-squad the way you want me to, God. I am yours. I surrender. I don’t want control. Lead me and guide me. Your path for me is better than any path I could lead myself on. Break me when I need to be broken. Humble me when I need to be humbled. Make my flesh weak so that I can lean on your strength. And through it all help me find joy in the suffering. Help me grow closer to you so that I may be a better servant in your eyes.
In Jesus name
Amen
