When I first applied for the World Race, I felt so much peace about fundraising. I was legitimately not phased by it in the slightest (which is pretty uncharacteristic, because I’m a worrier who also doesn’t like asking people for money).
However, in the last few days, I’ve let myself get overwhelmed by the numbers.
How the heck am I actually gonna raise nearly $17,000 in the next six months?
Is this actually gonna happen?
Of course I’ve heard absolutely EVERY cliche saying about fundraising “God’s will, God’s bill”, “God provides”, yadda yadda yadda.
And I’ve always believed it in theory.
But for some reason, as I’ve been praying about fundraising this week, I’ve felt weird about it. I come before the Lord, with fundraising on my heart, and I just feel weighed down by a million other thoughts and the seeming impossibility of everything.
Does God even want to bless me in this? I’m still so broken. I still sin and turn away from God and disobey him on the reg. I would love to write a post about how, since I’ve become a missionary and in the process of fundraising and preparing to go into ministry, I’ve perfected my walk with the Lord. But that would be a lie. I’m still a dirty rotten sinner.
So with all these thoughts, I just got super overwhelmed. But then I listened to to a Steven Furtick message called “That Thing” (highly recommend it).
In this message, he addresses that one thing we keep going back to God for. That one thing we pray about all the time and want “fixed”, or granted, or what have you. That thing, for me, is fundraising. “God, help me raise the funds”, “God, lead the right people to support me”. You get the point.
The main point of the message was that there is usually something bigger than “that thing” that God is trying to fix or grant. And in the past few days, I’ve realized that as I’m trying to trust God to bring in the funds for the World Race, he is just trying to teach me to trust him period. If I trust the Lord, I will trust him with fundraising. It’s so much bigger than just “that thing”.
So my prayer is that I would trust the Lord with my future. That I would trust the Lord with my money. That I would trust the Lord with my relationships. That I would trust the Lord that he is graceful, and that he is good. My prayer is that in this growth of trust, I would shed my constant need for control, and for being in the know, and having everything settled. That I would embrace the unknown as an opportunity to trust the Lord and see what he does, rather than a situation to overcome.
And in trusting Him, I’m pretty sure God is going to take care of “that thing.” He always does.
