The countdown has begun…10 days! It’s finally hitting me that I am leaving this country for an entire year. I keep thinking, “This is one of the last times I’ll get to do this.” I think this thought when I’m sitting on my couch drinking coffee. I think this when I’m lying in my bed at night. I think this when I’m standing in a hot shower or taking a hot bubble bath.
I am a person who likes to be comfortable. Comfort is always what I miss the most. It’s kind of funny that God has called me to be a missionary. We live our lives without comfort most of the time. Even though I pray for God to push me out of my comfort zone, I’m always trying to figure out ways to be more comfortable in my situation while on the mission field.
Even now, I am worrying about the availability of coffee in the places we are going to. Coffee makes me comfortable. It is something I cling to when away from home. Something about holding that warm cup in my hands and that familiar taste just puts me at ease.
Being gone for an entire year is going to be huge. An entire year is going to go by back home, and I will be gone. My best friend is getting married, and I won’t be there. Birthdays will go by and I won’t be there. Babies will be born. Engagements will most likely take place. Life will go on, and I won’t be around.
But this year of my life is going to be one of the most life-changing years I will probably ever have. It will be a year that I will always remember. I will see faces that I will never forget. I will get to do things that I may never get to do again. I will become a family with an entire group of people.
I told God that this year in my life is His. It is not about being comfortable and having coffee all the time. It’s not about my own personal gain. It’s not about becoming some amazing leader. It’s not about finding a husband. It’s not about building my resume. It’s not about making people proud of me. This year is dedicated to my Father in heaven.
He has given me more than I will ever know. He is the Great Comforter. He is exactly what I need. He is the One deserving of all glory and honor. He is the One who makes me who I am. He is the One who puts me in the positions I am in. He is my husband and my best friend. He has given me every gift and talent I possess. He is always proud to call me His child. He is happy with the person I am because I am His creation.
No matter how much I will miss home, family, and friends, I know that my Heavenly Father is with me. He is all I ever need. This is His year!
But I will miss you all!
