Lord I am more than willing to die a martyrs death but these daily deaths that are the foundation of walking a life with you suck.
This was seriously my thought the other day as I was confessing my brokeness. So with that being said here is the biggest sin I am struggling with:pride.
I realized I want to die as a martyr because I want honor abd confirmation that I “truly” lived a life of Christ. But for our Father it is so much more than the end death that speaks of our life. As I continue to follow the more painful humility is. I ask questions like why am I not perfecr? Why haven’t I figured this out? Why do I still lie? Lust?have pride? Am lazy? hate? And then I hear the words of my Savior saying that I am not the savior and am still in desperate need. So here I am still in desperate need of my God, daily. But I would not change it for the world, so I pick up my daoly cross to die to myself to live for Him.
