I’m not much of a dancer. As a man, I’ll admit it. I’m not saying I can’t dance…but I really can’t dance. It may just be the fact that I never really gave it a chance in the first place. So most of the time I look in, and not take much of a jump into the opportunity.
In August 2008 I learned how to let go and just do it in the hot, stuffy, humid house in Dwarka, New Delhi. It didn’t matter to me anymore and I let go of all that was holding me back. We had worship on the rooftop of a spiritual stronghold, and nothing mattered in those moments. The Spirit met us there and we proclaimed JESUS to the nation of India!
My savior met me in an intimate and personal way that night. It was different than other times. It’s hard to explain, the way that something that personal always is. All I have to say is that nothing else mattered in those moments of ultimate freedom and LOVE.
Since being home I feel as though I have forgotten how to dance at times. I’m looking forward to the future and trying to avoid the past. I catch myself looking all directions except for right in front of me. Christ is holding my hands and showing me how to move in step with him, but I’m stumbling all over the place. I haven’t been focused; quite embarrassing actually.
This week I hit that point where I was all over the place that I finally noticed how far off I have been. I’m stepping on Jesus’ toes and trying to pull him in directions that aren’t the right way. I’ve chosen once again to reset my mind and heart and truly submit. Start back to where I went astray. In doing so, I have seen where the Lord is leading me now. I’m still nervous, excited, and often apprehensive. I know I like to be comfortable…but the Lord is showing me how to be comfortable in the uncomfortable. He’s taking me in a direction where I have less control than I thought (which really is none). And dep down, it feels good. I feel alot freer and more confident in the direction.
So here I am once again learning to dance with Jesus! I sense him leading me towards the Race once again. I have no idea what that looks like, but I do know that 2010 will be another year of planes, trains, and automobiles. I’ll continue to keep you posted on the next steps as I see them. Right now I see the direction and I know I won’t be able to do it on my own. I will need you everlasting prayer and financial support.
Thanks for having patience with me as I am constantly learning by falling down in honesty and faith and getting back up in humility and grace!
For the KINGDOM!!
