Training Camp…Day 3. It's going well! Good thing I came in with minimal expectations. So glad I did. I've been to a missions training camp before, and while it is similar in many ways, it has been entirely different in others.
There is this awesome dog that runs around at camp. He/she is white, med/large and has a dark spot around one eye. COMPLETELY lovable. I pray that I have a dog like this someday. Why do I share this? I don't know. I like dogs. Anyway, I don't desire to go into specifics, but do plan to share what God has been revealing through this tiempo thus far.
These first few days have included LOTS of worship sessions. I like to worship, but it seemed loooooong at first – longer than I'm accustomed to. Last night, on the 4th of July (after eating what I think was Nepali food), we worshipped AGAIN and it was fantastic. "There ain't nothing like the real thing, baby." God's love poured out on His children. His children giving praise and thanksgiving. God continuing to rain down. It's such a beautiful exchange.
I've been battling over some things in my brain. This started before training camp, and I believe it's being resolved through His power. Words have been spoken that have morphed my previous thinking. Here are some of them:
-I struggle with the fact that I am 23 and have not yet obtained a degree. One of the speakers here talked about how it doesn't matter. Are you kidding me? Does God still not want to use my life? Should I hold back from doing Kingdom work because of this reality? No. I can't.
-The same speaker (Michael Hines) spoke about the Holy Spirit a great deal. One question he posed…"Would you like the Holy Spirit…no matter how it comes?" Yes. I've had all these presumptions about how the Holy Spirit comes. I am just going to keep desiring Him.
-Have you ever come to a place of complete surrender? Yesterday afternoon was one of those instances for myself. Then, a girl with long, curly blond hair came up to me. I am assuming she is on staff, but I don't remember who it was. She said to me, "You don't think you're ready, but God says you are." Hmmmm. Then, God INSTANTLY said to me, "Let's Go." Most clear I've heard His voice in a while. It was almost audible.
I'm learning, relating, conversing, eating, sleeping, worshipping, reading, writing, praying, walking. Maybe the present capacities of all these categories are not what my flesh desires, but it's GOOD.
Ok, God…..let's go. I'm going your way. Looking forward to what you have in store during this last month I have with my friends and co-workers in Colorado before I set out on THE RACE.
Running outta time, yo. I'm out like trout. Be back in the Springs on the 10th!
Peace.
Marissa
-Zech. 4:6
Here's a little worship vid from the leaders that are here:
