I’m convinced time has never moved faster than it has in these past 6 months. I’m almost in a state of denial that Christmas is here and my birthday is right around the corner. I haven’t picked up a single gift for anyone or figured out birthday plans, I’m still getting over the candy hangover that was Halloween. I should know best of all people that time stops for no one, and the days to launch are less than 30 and my time left at work are numbered down to a matter of weeks. Tick tock goes the clock as my sweaty palms try to grasp every waking moment.
“But Lord!” I think, late at night:
“There’s money to be raised!”
“People I need to connect with!”
“Memories I need to share!”
“Gear I need to buy!”
Then, like a tsunami in my soul, an over rushing wave of peace takes over my thoughts and softens my wide eyes in the dark of my room. If you have ever experienced the overwhelming peace of God, you know exactly what I’m talking about. If not, I unfortunately do not have the words to describe to you just how soothing to the soul it is. It’s similar to when you’re standing at the shore and the last bit of wave catches your feet and drifts back into the ocean, and you feel the sand and water gliding underneath your toes again and again and again. In that moment I received this gift of unwavering faith that everything was going to work out, that everything was going to be just fine. “It’s all going to be okay,” I found myself breathing out.
I recently finished a great book called The Reason, and one of the main characters of the book had this unwavering faith that was so inspirational. Admits the trials and tribulations, she believed that everything would be fine in the end. At the darkest hour, when it seemed hopeless, a miracle happened. Often times on this journey of fundraising and leaving a season, I feel helpless and frustrated, and it’s hard bringing myself back to a mindset that everything’s going to be okay when it seems like situations are working against me.
It can be hard to break out of this stronghold, but I also need to remind myself that I’m building my foundation on rock and not sand. That my faith, hope and trust is in Jesus, the one solid thing in my life when everything else is questionable. I think this truth can be used in all aspects of our lives, what we base our values and morals on is what will guide us in this life, and this moment with Jesus in my room, while chaos was surrounding me and my mind was enveloped in the “what ifs” brought me back to what I base my life on- the solid and my steadfast hope in Jesus.
He is so faithful it’s almost stupid. I see the pieces of this year come to a close, I can see the memories created and the blessings come in and the last minute details come full circle, and it truly is a sight to be seen. It is a hand crafted spectacle by Jesus and presented to me. I believe it’s His way of saying “It’s all going to be okay.”
And you know what? I’m choosing to believe it.
Buying Christmas gifts-
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Christmas, Birthdays, Good-bye’s, oh my! This Holiday, all I’m asking for is donations
towards my trip. I’m $2,000 away from hitting my goal! This year, give the gift
that keeps on giving by donating to your favorite missionary.
(Me, in case that wasn’t clear ;))
