I often say that I feel like I'm 12 or look like I'm 12. I let the lies of the enemy consume my identity. People say, "you have such a little, cute voice." Well, in all honesty, that gets to me sometimes. It makes me feel like I'm not heard or respected. Some things that I say, it is like a little girl is talking. I don't present myself like an adult when I need to. During this month, it has been a lot of God ministering to me, not the other way around like I thought it would be. Since Guatemala, God has been giving me dreams about stepping into a new season with Him and people have come up to me left and right speaking into my identity and giving me encouraging words and prayers. God has been preparing me for this in so many ways. Well, let me tell you what happened.
It is so hard to put this into words. It was so deep in my soul and meaningful to my heart! I will try my hardest!
This past weekend I went to a worship conference and I sat in the presence of God for about 20 hours. He answered many prayers and I had some great prophetic words spoken over me. One thing that I did is I went up to Jane, the wife of John who are our contacts and are so amazing, and explained my heart. I have this huge desire of marriage and a family, plus I knew that God was preparing me for a new season of womanhood. A new season of maturity and a whole new perspective on life with Him. She had mentioned a Bat Barakah (the boys have a Bar Mitzvah). It's a part of the Jewish culture. The cool thing about that is, the girl is released into womanhood when she is 12 years old. I had confirmation that this is now my time to be released into womanhood.
Monday night John (the husband) dressed up in his nicest suit for my ceremony. We had a nice meal and the ceremony started. It started by us praying then each team member wrote something out for me. Each person called me into womanhood and asked God to remove any childish ways and for Him to replace it with His new thoughts for me. I want to share some of the things that were spoken over me. If that's alright. 🙂
- May your heart conceive with understanding.
- May your mouth speak wisdom and your tongue be stirred with sounds of joy.
- May you have the ability to make your hopes and dreams come true and may you see your visions come to be.
- May your gaze be straight and sure, your eyes be lit with the light of Jesus, your face aglow with Heaven's radiance, your lips express words of knowledge, and your inner self alive with righteousness.
- May God shine His face toward you and show you favor.
- I'm God's sweetheart
- Proverbs 3, Ephesians 3, Luke 1:46-55
- Noah and the ark
- God will bless the generations that come to me.
- I will have a super lucky husband
- You have the Son within you, you have life.
- Healer of hearts, holder of hope
- I will live my life with grace and honor.
- He will open my eyes to the great places ahead of me.
- Calling me into a boldness of who God is
- (there is so much more, this is just some!)
The next part of the ceremony is to pray over the 7 critical times of blessing:
- Conception
- Time in the Womb
- Birth
- Infancy
- Puberty
- Marriage
- Later in Life
John prayed for the times he could. I cried and was more free in my heart. After praying Jane had a vision to share. She saw God give me a bouquet of yellow roses. That meant even more to me because yellow roses were my grandmother's favorite flower, and it was her birthday/death day just the day before. Right in the middle of the bouquet there was one red rose. I also had a vision of me in a beautiful wedding dress. After the prayers, we had communion together and delicious dessert. So all of this to say, the Father and I became closer that day. I physically feel different and I'm so excited to see what He has in store for me. I'm glad that I am obedient and He blessed me with riches and a new identity, as a woman. My cup is overflowing. This was such a personal and emotional time for me, and I wish all of you were there to experience it.
To my parents: I love you with my whole heart. God chose you to be my parents and I'm so thankful. You are my best friends. I love being with you and I love all of the memories I have with you! I am honored to be your daughter and I hope I make you proud in everything I do. You have taught me so much that I will take with me for forever. Thank you for all you've done!
I am Marianne Cayce. I'm 22 and I'm here to give glory to God and love His people. People hear what I have to say. I have a voice of a lion. I have wisdom from the Lord. I am beautiful because of Christ. I have a heart full of love and joy. I was made for love and to be loved. I love hugs and laughing. God does sweet and cool things daily. I am always learning. I hear God's voice. I am a WOMAN! WOOHOO!!
& God is good, all the time.
